Quote of the Day

Ok... I admit it... Sleeping at Last is one of my absolute favorite bands and their lyrics always struck me. Sometimes in the middle of a day when I listen to them a line might stand out and touch me so deeply I want to cry (seriously!!!)

So the following words are pure beauty and amazing... imagine somebody writing this for you. I would probably melt.

"If time is money, then I'll spend it all for you
I will buy you flowers with the minutes we outgrew
I'll turn hours into gardens, planted just for us to take
I'll be reckless with my days, building castles in your name"

xoxo

Ramona

Giving up

Sometimes in life we have to give things up. Things come to an end.
I had to do this quite often in my life. Like, giving up this certain TV Show because it was not good for me. Giving up friends or a boyfriend.
If I were to put language over the last couple of months it has all been about letting go and giving up. There have been situations where things from my past would come up and would really tear me down. Things I didn't even know they were still there. Very uncomfortable feelings that rose and that scared me because I thought I was stronger or had overcome these kind of things. But then again it was good that it came up because it gave me the chance to deal with it. I was able to completely let it go and and be freed in these areas.
And then there have been things that I really wanted or hoped for or thought were right and I had to find out that they are not. They just hold me back from becoming the person I should be and so I have given up. And there are still things where I have to figure out how to give them up and move forward, like certain ministries in church where I have put too much on my plate instead of asking God what he wants to put on my plate and he never gives us too much and all these things were probably right. Yet I have come to a place of wanting to move on. I want to be the Leader He wants me to be. I want to minister to people the BEST way I can.
So, I'm still trying to figure it all out, trying to make the right choices. And it is all a process. A process of becoming the woman God wants me to be...

"Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life." ~ Proverbs 4:34

xoxo

Ramona

Ribbon into Bow

It is November which means that the new Sleeping at Last EP is out. The EP starts soft and quietly with "Bright and Early", a truly beautiful song. I feel like their lyrics never get old and never repeat themselves. They are always truly beautiful. Always truly authentic and real. And always poetic in a way it touches my heart.

"Cause if trust is ribbon
then patience ties it
in a perfect bow"

These are the last lines of "Bright and Early" and ever since I read these lines I cannot but ponder about them. What a beautiful pictures this makes.
Sometimes we just simply have to wait for things or to wait on things. But in all that there is trust, hope that what is deep in our hearts will find its way to reality.

xoxo

Ramona

Awake and live your dream

We could call this Day 2 of trying to express what is in my head and in my heart, what I have learned and heard and processed at conference.
But how can you express something that you felt so deep in your heart. Something that God said to you, something you shouted out to Him? It is something so deep and amazing that I feel I don't want to put it online for the world to read, yet I want to express myself, because that is the way I process things. I talk. I write. I dance.
Do you know the feeling when something is best expressed by music? Like it is following you as the Soundtrack of your life. The music your life writes accompanied with the music currently on your playlist?
Well, this song is one of them. It came to me at the perfect moment in time.
Here it is. Enjoy.



xoxo

Ramona

In the Meantime...

So, here I am on a Monday afternoon with so many thoughts in my head that I would like to write out, but cannot seem to gather in a proper way.
I still don't have a new journal to write down all my wild and crazy ponderings, but I'll sure order one soon - very soon because it is so needed now.
This morning on my walk to work all of a sudden I knew I had to finally start writing about some of the things that God has been working on me lately.
Two weeks ago I went to Munich for work and then flew off to London-Town for the Hillsong Conference. It is always a very inspiring and amazing conference with lots to take in.

One of the things which really spoke to me was a message by Judah Smith where he talked about the dreaded "Meantime". It is the time in between, the waiting time, the time where you do not know what is going to happen. All you can do is trust, trust that one day you will find that place you will step into your calling and BE there.
Apparently I have found myself in that place fo a while now, still walking, still trusting, but always knowing that God IS faithful and that He is bringing me there. You go through the valleys and you climb the mountains, but you enjoy every single bit of the journey. You enjoy every single day knowing that you want to be faithful with what God has put in your hands NOW.

So this message just spoke to me and encouraged me to keep on going. At the same time, God has put some pretty amazing things on my heart at conference. He restored some of my dreams and reminded me of some of the dreams he had put there years ago. This in combination with that message was just the best.
It also reminds me of the time when I wrote about The Exciting times of waiting.

I just thank God for reminding me of these things again.

xoxo

Ramona

Side by Side

Good Morning people,

ok... don't know if it is actually morning where you are, but it sure is where I am. 8 am. Still cannot write about all of the things in my heart and what has happened at conference, but I will.
But to not spare you of words I want to share the lyrics of this beautiful song with you. It is (of course) by Sleeping at Last (by the way you should totally check out their Yearbook project) and is called Side by Side:

A single voice
In an ocean of constant noise,
But somehow our ears were trained
To recognize when we hear you call our name.

Side by side,
Every movement was memorized,
Choreographed before
The schools of fish were born.
Their patterns and plans align,
All in a glorious effort to survive.

There is no language for what we've seen,
Only the sweetness that bends us to our knees,
And all of these fumbling words
To explain what it means,
But out hearts were buried deep in the sand.

The sea unlocks
Like the lid of a music box.
It shivers with foreign sound,
As long as the gears stay wound
The whales will sing their song
All in a glorious effort to be strong.

There's no need to be afraid,
Overwhelming love cascades.
The melody will rise and swell
As it finds its way inside the shell.

The mouth is a mirror,
The mouth is a mirror,
The mouth is a mirror.
We must watch what we say.

There is no language for what we've seen,
Only the sweetness that bends us to our knees,
And all of these fumbling words
To explain what it means,
But our hearts were buried deep in the sand

Isn't that just pure beauty in words?

Back... not yet

I am back from a week of traveling, first to Munich for a business trip and then to London for the Hillsong Conference.
There is so much on my heart and mind and so many things that I would like to tell you about, write about and figure out, but I just cannot seem to find the words yet.
I think I have to sit down and just write it all out. I feel like I need to take the time to let it all sink in. And then I will write here, share my thoughts...

So... I'll be back soon...

xoxo

Ramona