Failure

I have the tendency of perfectionism and althouth many years ago somebody told me to stop trying to be perfect and instead just do my best I still struggle with it. And then if I fail and things don't work out right I beat myself up about it, analyze it, look at it from all angles to find out what I did wrong and why I failed.

Just a few weeks ago I made a choice in my new job which lead to chaos and ultimately failure. I knew I made the right choice when I did it because I had to try it out to see the result. Yet the result was so fatal that I regreted it for a while and kept beating myself up about it. In fact I kept thinking about it for three days straight only to realize that the most important thing is to let it go, to not regret the choice I made for it helped me see and understand and learn. But to take this situation now and learn from it. Analyze it, take action steps and plan better for the future.
And that in itself is called the learning curve.
I love being in this season right now because I keep on learning, keep on figuring things out and most of all I am learning not to worry but to trust the Lord, that He has got it under control, that He will equip me and empower me to do everything He has called me to do.

xoxo

Ramona