2 1/2 months

As a lot of you know I have not been working the past 2 1/2 months. I am going to start my new job next Monday and the time in between my jobs was a gift which I am so thankful for. It has been a time which I haven't had since graduating from High School.
I took the time to figure some things out because I really felt like I was at a turning point in my life. A point in time where I needed to sit down and ask myself some of the hard questions like "Who do I want to be?" "What kind of legacy do I want to leave?" "What is my calling?" "What do I want to do with my life and in my life?" "What are my dreams, visions, what's the life I see?"
I spent quite some time exploring these questions. I spent time in the Word, time in prayer, just time with God, thinking, dreaming, seeing things.

And now looking back at these 2 1/2 months I see how God was at work. He made a cut on April 30th and gave me time, just simply the gift of time. And in this time I became more myself. I became me again. I know now what I'm supposed to do. I know now who I want to be and although I have no clue what the future holds and when I'll meet my future husband for that matter but it's not important because I found myself in God. Fully loved. Fully accepted. Fully free. I have a calling. I have dreams. I have a vision of something that could be and all I want to do is the best I can today so that the future will enfold. I want to be faithful with that which God has given me in my hands now.

So here I stand looking ahead and I am happy. I allow myself to just be.

On top of all of that I did some amazing thing. I had the time to catch up on things, watch movies, house and dog sit for a family. Then my friend from Alabama visited for almost 3 weeks and it was like recess and camp altogether. I also spent a week in Fuerteventura, Spain. So... next week I'll fill you in on some pictures so be sure to check back here then.

xoxo

Ramona

Who am I?

As one season comes to an end and I find myself in an in between season this question lingers again. Like a cloud is is hanging over me. It is a question I need to answer but not only in view of the present but most certainly need I think about the future.
Dreams. Visions. Goals... So to say.

Last week I went to London to the Hillsong Colour conference. One evening Brian Houston was preaching and he challenged all of us to sit down and write "The life I see".
At first I felt like I couldn't write it as if it was an impossibility. But on my flight to Austria (where I spent my last weekend) I pulled out my Moleskine and just started. As the pictures in my head started to become ink on paper a lot of things started to make sense as if they had just waited to be thought of yet even said.

And now there it is: New Dreams, new Visions and a life to pursue. And yet again I am left with a challenge. Go after your Dreams. Pray, be faithful, follow Jesus even more and learn. Become a better person and grow.

I gladly accept this challenge and cannot wait for the seasons ahead.

xoxo

Ramona

Keeping the Vision clear

Sometimes you're out there encountering all kinds of obstacles. you're fighting the battles. You're dealing with the day to day struggles. And it is so easy to get caught up with that, to lose sight of everything.
Have you ever felt like that?

I know I have. Therefore over the last two or three weeks I have deliberately chosen to not lose sight of the vision. The one reason why I am doing what I am doing.
And I am keeping this vision really clear, I am reminding myself of it daily.
I believe God gave ma a new revelation about what it means to bring people together around a table sharing a meal.
Something was birthed in my heart and now I have to hold onto that and run with it.

xoxo

Ramona

** my favorite picture from this year from this party